I don’t talk…
I don’t talk just to fill the air, I don’t move to prove I care, I don’t scare when the sky turns black, I don’t leave when I get pushed back, I’ve seen strong men lose their ground, heard great words fall apart out loud (America), I don’t shake when the walls give in, I get quiet, and I dig in when it gets heavy, when it gets loud, when everyone’s running around, I don’t run. I don’t bend when I stand. I don’t fall; I hold it all. I am truly brilliant in a crisis – cool, calm, and collected. I just seem to know what to do; I solve problems, situations, etc. I am unbothered.
Anyway, I am staying in my lane this year, walking through 2026 focused, growing, glowing and following those ebbs and flows of life. I am seriously trying to avoid all the dramas in life, especially those of other people. I have been under an immense amount of strain regarding my physical health and my mental health, all still ongoing, but this time, although taking advice from doctors, consultants, occupational therapists, psychiatrists, psychologists, specialists and all the other “ists”, I have decided to listen to my body and follow what it is telling me because, frankly, there are only so many pills and injections one can take, and when you read the side effects of these medications, often not taking them is less risky than actually taking them because long-term use usually leads to other issues which you wouldn’t have if you hadn’t taken the medication. You're caught between a rock and a hard place, so that brings me back to listening to my body where possible. There are obviously some things that must be taken.
My mental health is a bit of a mess at the moment but at the same time stable-ish, provided no one rocks my boat or pokes the bear, so to speak. The calm me is very calm; the not-calm me is likely to cost lives and end with a prison sentence. Not really, but the extremes are really that much of a swing and can happen in milliseconds. I have a new hobby, which is assisting in the keeping calm, 3D printing and painting of miniature figures, many of which you will be able to see on this website very soon, as I am sure you will understand that these things take me much longer to organise than your average person due to the way my head works, especially when it comes to this website, organising things so they look good and how I want them and so hopefully anyone who sees it actually enjoys it or finds it interesting – who knows, even helpful.
I am working on integrating and linking and standardising all my social media (TikTok, Instagram, etc.) so they will all link into my website, so keep an eye on my socials. I may also start to bring in some of my experience of mental health on those platforms too if demand calls, but for now, see you in my next blog.
