Insecurities

Confidence doesn’t always arrive with a bold entrance. Sometimes, it builds quietly, step by step, as we show up for ourselves day after day. It grows when we choose to try, even when we’re unsure of the outcome. Every time you take action despite self-doubt, you reinforce the belief that you’re capable. Confidence isn’t about having all the answers — it’s about trusting that youIn some ways not having a relationship where two people live together can be good, in that your partner is more likely to get the best parts and moments of you as you will see them mostly when you are manic or on an emotional high or if they’re lucky a plateau .

The every day drudge of life can cause a downward spiral of despair when you live together the grind of life bills, money or lack of, noisy kids if you have them, burnt dinners, noisy neighbours who burn their rubbish when you have washing out you know the kind of thing.

When I am manic I seem to become more sensitive on a sensory level I hear more and see things in more detail and smell things much more vividly so all of the above can just get too much. Clocks ticking like something from a horror movie slow, loud, clunky and menacing that kind of thing, your brain has 100 you tube, TikTok videos open at the same time and you’re in a room with a lot of people chattering loudly all at the same time and it never ever, ever stops.

But try explaining this to others and they look at you like you are some kind of weirdo who thinks he has supper sensory powers, you are delusional definitely someone they do not want to be associated with, although if you are having a particularly bad run you can start to believe you can do things better than anyone else ever could, even that you are superior to them.

Again not to great if you are trying to have a relationship of any kind.

I digress back to those insecurities based upon what you have already seen here imagine what it must be like asking someone out or even having a conversation over dinner with someone you have only just met, hard enough for normal people but with all that other stuff going on in your head and the fear of judgement about your appearance clothes face teeth etc. then god forbid you actually manage to get to the making out stage well insecurity city here we come. Sweaty hands, bad breath, smelly pits, all of which you know you don’t have but still worry about and hair ( yes or no ) bald not bald, shaven not shaven, hairy chest, oh no and a hairy back, a pot belly, ( although for a woman a hairy back and pot belly may not be the best look but hey) too skinny, too muscly, These days it is almost impossible to have a conversation with someone in fear you might offend them if you are someone like me who stumbles over their words and says things that are ambiguous easily interpreted both ways you can be sure it will get interpreted the wrong way.

All this adds to those insecurities until you get to a point where you just simply don't bother any more.

Anyway hope this helps hope to see you in my next post.

can figure it out along the way.

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You don’t need to be fearless to reach your goals, you just need to be willing. Willing to try, willing to learn, and willing to believe that you’re capable of more than you know. The road may not always be smooth, but growth rarely is. What matters most is that you keep going, keep learning, and keep believing in the version of yourself you’re becoming.